Just Say It

Although one can go on blabbing about unnecessary things when drunk, I personally think that we are all still conscious of what we are saying- except we've become careless about them. At least that's the case for me.

You wouldn't consider me a shy person nor an extrovert- I'm somewhere in between. I talk about what is usually proper, and say things the proper way. I am tactful and think well of what I say (a lot of times overthink about it). I sometimes see this as a problem, because thinking too much about what I am about to say can lead to me to not say anything at all. But thanks to you know what...

Drinking doesn't make me unconscious; it just makes me careless. I am not going to deny the fact that I still remember a lot of what happens no matter how much I drink. I don't really understand how some people wake up the next morning and cannot remember a thing. Anyway, I think the effect on me is a good thing because I am able to say exactly what I have in mind (and heart) without thinking if I might sound stupid. With a drink, I know exactly what I am saying- I just don't think ahead about it.

Sober: Hi Steve
Not: Hug me Steve!
or
Sober: I'm fine
Not: I wanna barf right now
...are just a few examples of how I express what I mean depending on the situation.

I learned something from this experience, and that is to not think too much. Thinking too much gets me nowhere, and I tend to do this by dwelling too long on even the littlest things, and it stresses me out. I need to relax, even when in talking (or rather, in thinking before I even talk). Action implemented: I am in the process of training and encouraging myself to say exactly what I want, without the need for any influence on my brain functions. Hopefully in time, there would be no need for me to even consciously think about doing this.